☆ New Songs & Songs on Repeat; Go home
꩜ / In my head
꩜ Living Around, The Promise Ring
I guess this just fits with all this living around
Things finally getting sound
With this place that I have found
It's the end of the world today
You dropped a bomb on my bad day
꩜ The Girl From Ipanema, Antônio Carlos Jobim
꩜ The Fox in the Snow, Belle & Sebastian
Boy on the bike, what are you like
As you cycle round the town?
You're going up, you're going down, you're going nowhere
It's not as if they're paying you, it's not as if it's fun
At least not anymore
There's Too Much Love, Belle & Sebastian
꩜ O Pato, João Gilberto
Didn't It Rain, Songs: Ohia
If they think you got it they're going to beat it out of you
Through work and debt, whatever all else there is
You gotta watch your own back
Try to see the light of goodness burning down the track
Blue Factory Flame, Songs: Ohia
Every mile for ten thousand miles
Every year for a thousand years
Every night for a thousand more
I hear 'em call
I hear 'em call
Hear 'em call
They never say to come home
Never say to come home
Where I am
Paralyzed by the emptiness
Paralyzed by the emptiness
Paralyzed by the emptiness
Paralyzed by the emptiness
Two Blue Lights, Songs: Ohia
You can’t hear it but you can tell
When the bells ring twelve times in hell
The bells ring twelve times in this town as well
Blue Chicago Moon, Songs: Ohia
But if the blues are your hunter
You will come face to face
That darkness and desolation
And the endless, endless, endless, endless
Endless, endless depression
But you are not helpless
You are not helpless
Try to beat it
Try to beat it
꩜ Just Be Simple, Songs: Ohia
If Heaven's really coming back
I hope it has a heart attack
When it sees how dangerous
It is for guys like that
The Last Lovesong, Jens Lekman
Every lovesong is a curse
At first, so sweet at its arrival
But when I′ve written down its words
It stares back at me like a stuffed animal
The very thing it was to capture
Vanished in the moment after
It just slipped right out of my little hands
Wedding in Leipzig, Jens Lekman
Families are boarding first, and all you, lonely losers, come second
We felt sorry for you from the moment that you checked in
...
He asks why I sing at weddings and I say it makes me feel like a midwife
Like I deliver these people into the next phase of their lives
The priest says
Well then, you stand in the middle, but still stand at the side.
You observe and study but you don't really participate in life.
...
So this is the singles table, these are my people
Does anyone have cyanide, a razor blade or a pistol?
꩜ Be a Superman, Yellow Magic Orchestra
꩜ Become One Anything One Time, The Promise Ring
You gotta have some faith when you give up ground
Lose the fight still toast the day
I'm left with pillow talk
All I hear is whispering and heavy hearts
My Life is Starting Over, Daniel Johnston
I know that there's no place left to hide
I guess that it's better than suicide
Cut You, Cloud Nothings
The First Lovesong, Jens Lekman
Wild Sage, The Mountain Goats
And then I think I hear angels in my ears
Like marbles being thrown against a mirror
美味情缘 A Recipe for the Heart, Yourboyfriendsucks!
He doesn’t rеally know what is real love
Just let him masturbatе for himself
You deserve a better one
Josephine's Shop, My Little Airport
Snowy!, Your Arms Are My Cocoon
Everlasting Love, Club 8
New Star Song, The Mountain Goats
Soudoire Valley Song, The Mountain Goats
Take care of the old man
See if he's in pain
Have somebody stay with him
Comfort him when he complains
Harlem Roulette, The Mountain Goats
The loneliest people in the whole wide world
Are the ones you're never going to see again
White Cedar, The Mountain Goats
Mission, Alex G
I've kept my mission tight
Send my message to the chief, say
I did good, I stayed out of the heat
I did good, I kept it on track, yeah
I was trained to stick to the mission
I was trained, I kept it on track, yeah
Be a Superman, Yellow Magic Orchestra
Be a superman!
I don't wanna sleep now
Be a superman!
I don't wanna wake up
Help!, The Beatles
And now my life has changed in oh so many ways
My independence seems to vanish in the haze
Eugene (Demo), Sufjan Stevens
Since I was old enough to speak, I've said it with alarm
Some part of me was lost in your sleeve
Where you hid your cigarettes
No, I’ll never forget
I just want to be near you
Living Around, The Promise Ring ꩜ Been waking up with it in my head
Reading your books, wearing your clothes
Nobody knows that they're not mine
No Shade in the Shadow of the Cross, Sufjan Stevens
Fox in the Snow, Belle & Sebastian
Fox in the snow, where do you go
To find something you could eat?
'Cause the word out on the street is you are starving
Fox in the snow (When your legs look black and blue)
Fox in the snow (It's not as if they're paying you)
My Life is Starting Over, Daniel Johnston
I know that there's no place left to hide
I guess that it's better than suicide
Runaway Train, Soul Asylum
Absolute Lithops Effect, The Mountain Goats
Afterlife, Alex G
Hidden River of My Life, Sufjan Stevens
Southern Sky, Alex G
Transatlanticism, Death Cab for Cutie
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In the Devil’s Territory, Sufjan Stevens
We stayed a long, long time
But I'm not afraid to die
...
To see you
To meet you
To see you
At last
...
I stole my father's shoes
I pulled his pockets too
Farewell Transmission (Demo), Songs: Ohia
I will let everything be what it will
It really is this cold and dark in hell
...
I only start to taste the dust
And I forget who I owe, and what
Who I am, and was
Absolute Lithops Effect, The Mountain Goats
(I wrote a letter about it & then I dreamt about it.)
The big trucks come up the highway
And the big wheels rattle my windows
And night, night comes to Texas
New Boy, 朴树
The Start of Something, Voxtrot
I'm sorry, everybody knows
You can't break me with your gutter prose
Headlights (Album), Alex G
June Guitar, Real Thing, Afterlife, Spinning, Far & Wide, Headlights, Is It Still You in There?
Needle in the Hay, Elliott Smith
Sober to Death, Carseat Headrest
Sex & Candy, Marcy Playground
It's the End of the World as We Know It (And I Feel Fine), R.E.M.
The Only Thing (Live), Sufjan Stevens
Transatlanticism, Death Cab for Cutie
Afterlife, Alex G
Afterlife, Alex G
Let me write down
Every word
Once I was a mockingbird
Not an angel
But I’m your man
I can bring you back again
Farewell Transmission, Songs: Ohia
Real truth about it is
No one gets it right
Real truth about it is
We're all supposed to try
In Heaven, Japanese Breakfast
Now I leave here just an empty goddamn hole
The Brae, Yumi Zouma
Talking to yourself out loud to no one
Seems you're never very far from your problems
Go ahead, I’ll take the hit
You know that I'm used to it
Take your time, see me go
Know you could've never known
Nervous Bride, Songs: Ohia
And I lay down tonight as nervous as a bride
She's not nervous, but she tries
Lioness, Songs: Ohia
Want my heart to break if it must break in your jaws
And if you can’t get here fast enough
And you can’t get here fast enough
...
I will swim to you
I will swim to you
Being In Love, Songs: Ohia
But if you stick with me, you can help me
The Black Crow, Songs: Ohia
Through sparrow black wind
A dead crow calls out to his wings
We were lightning across the whole world
We were lightning
Lightning, lightning
...
I’m getting weaker, I’m getting thin
...
And I look down, and I see the whole world
And it’s fading
It’s fading
The Old Black Hen, Songs: Ohia
Leave all the truth in so they know what comes next
With the Bad Luck Lullaby
Leave in the true love they never find
Show how they're looking for it all of their lives
Taking, Alex G
That's how she found me this morning
Bundled my head in her arms
Sweet Baby James, James Taylor
There's a song that they sing when they take to the highway
Just Be Simple, Songs: Ohia
If heaven's really coming back
I hope it has a heart attack
Powerful Man, Alex G
Maybe he was out of line
But he was still a pretty close friend of mine
Maybe he had hurt me bad
But a brother is a brother and that is that
Hold on Magnolia, Songs: Ohia
Hold on Magnolia
To the thunder and the rain
I’ve Been Riding With the Ghost, Songs: Ohia
I've been riding with the ghost
I've been doing whatever he told me
I've been looking door to door
To see if there was someone who'd hold me
...
See I ain't getting better
I am only getting behind
Standing on the crossroad
Trying to make up my mind
Trying to remember how it got so late
Why every night pain comes from a different place
Now something's got to change
Farewell Transmission, Songs: Ohia
Someone must have set them up
Now they'll be working in the cold grey rock
Now they'll be working in the hot mill steam
Now they'll be working in the concrete
Gypsy, Tigers Jaw
Sucks to Be You, Prozzäk
Strange Disease, Prozzäk
The Only Thing (Live), Sufjan Stevens: Thanks for the reminder, Wren.
Mystery of Love (Demo), Sufjan Stevens
American Girl, Tom Petty
Trying to sleep & Ivy howlingsinging the “Tom Petty edging song.”
rebirth and karma, my dead girlfriend
Ain't It Easy, Alex G
(Getting hit by a car; I hear honking when I listen now.)
Peng! 33, Stereolab
Me and Michael, MGMT
Strange, Galaxie 500
Taking, Alex G
Toby, Take a Bow, Casiotone for the Painfully Alone
Toby Grace, world record winner
Me and Michael, MGMT, (Thanks Ivy ♡)
Gypsy, Tigers Jaw
Lightning strikes, maybe once, maybe twice
Oh, and it lights up the night
God Save the Animals, Alex G
After All, Alex G
After all
Things may come and things may go away
Yeah, but God with me, He stayed
Yeah, but God with me, He stayed
...
There are rooms where I can't hang my head
There are tears that I can't cry
...
Were you young when you lost innocence?
Did the world feel so unkind?
Absolute Lithops Effect, The Mountain Goats
"This is a song about sitting alone in a room waiting for something to happen."
My insides are pink and raw
And it hurts me when I move my jaw
...
And night, night comes to Texas
After one blind season alone in here
After one long sweltering summer
I, I'm going to find the exit
And I will go to the house of a friend I know
Ivy sang A Candle's Fire by Beirut & I cried.
Blue Chicago Moon, Songs Ohia
In a dream.
Exactly Just What Nobody Wanted, Jeffrey Lewis and The Voltage
You were throwing off sparks of pure power
Sending signals from a mystery tower
...
A long time waiting and leaving
And that's a good, weird faith to believe in
Kno U, Origami Angel
From Ivy
Commandante, The Mountain Goats
(In Fable II there is a character called the Commandant.)
I got a rosary to protect us both from harm
I got a storage locker full of cow figurines
Cross the Sea, Alex G
The Only Thing (Live), Sufjan Stevens: Last song of 2024, first song of 2025.
Blue Chicago Moon, Songs Ohia
But if the blues are your hunter
You will come face to face
That darkness and desolation
And the endless, endless, endless, endless
Endless, endless depression
But you are not helpless
You are not helpless
Try to beat it
Try to beat it
The Transfiguration, Sufjan Stevens
A Good Man is Hard to Find, Sufjan Stevens
And so I go to hell, I wait for it
But someone's left me creased
And someone's left me creased
In the Devil’s Territory, Sufjan Stevens
Be still & know your sign / The beast will arrive in time → Be still & know your sign / Be still, arrive on time.
Forgive, Alex G
Bus morning & it sounded beautiful to me.
Safe & Sound, Capital Cities
I could fill your cup
You know my river won't evaporate
This world we still appreciate
Gnaw, Alex G
Dry your eyes
I won't tell your mother
She won't ever discover
The things you kept under the covers
Southern Sky, Alex G
Forgive, Alex G
He sounds like he’s being wounded. “I choose today.”
Mission, Alex G
I was asleep like a child
I walked the idiot mile
I flinched at the switchblade switchingI did good, I stayed out of the kitchen
I did good, I kept it on track, yeahHey, look in the mirror
Ain't gonna right your wrong
With a stupid love song
- I like the female vocals, similar to The Only Thing (Live) & He Woke Me Up Again.
To Be Alone With You, Sufjan Stevens
You gave your body to the lonely
They took your clothes
You gave up a wife and a family
You gave your ghostTo be alone with me
To be alone with me
To be alone with me
You went up on a tree
In the Devil’s Territory, Sufjan Stevens
Kokou No Gadan (孤高の画壇), Kyojaku (虚弱)
In the car, driving to church.
Taking, Alex G
(In the car with my sister.)
The Only Thing (Live), Sufjan Stevens
The Hidden River of My Life, Sufjan Stevens
I'm biker, yeah I'm a beaver, web-foot walker, trailblazing fever
このスピードの先へ, Mass of the Fermenting Dregs
(I saw them in concert this month.)
Strange, Galaxie 500
Sarah, Alex G
The Hidden River of My Life, Sufjan Stevens
Abuse has left me on my side
He Woke Me Up Again, Sufjan Stevens
ワールドイズユアーズ, Mass of the Fermenting Dregs
Kokou No Gadan (孤高の画壇), Kyojaku (虚弱)
Jacksonville, Sufjan Stevens
I'm not afraid of the black man running
He's got it right, he's got a better life coming
I don't care what the captain said
I fold it right at the top of my head
...
I'm not afraid of Nichols Park
I ride the train and I ride it after dark
The Only Thing (Live), Sufjan Stevens
The Winner Is..., Mychael Danna and DeVotchKa
A Candle's Fire, Beirut
I heard this song for the first time on a walk where I saw a rainbow.
We're Gonna Make It, Mychael Danna and DeVotchKa
Jessica (Wave Remix), Dir En Grey
Pancho and Lefty, Townes Van Zandt
She began to cry when you said goodbye
And sank into your dreams
...
The poets tell how Pancho fell
And Lefty's living in cheap hotel
...
He just did what he had to do
And now he's growing old
Postcards to Italy, Beirut; (Cried singing in the car)
Fleet Foxes: Live on Boston Harbor
(Mykonos, The Shrine / An Argument, Blue Ridge Mountains)
A Good Man Is Hard to Find, Sufjan Stevens
Hold to your gun, man
...
And so I go to hell, I wait for it
But someone's left me creased
And someone's left me creased
からっぽのまにまに, ピノキオP
いつか 暖かな 春の陽射しも 忘れちまうから
震える君の 冷たくなった手を そっと握るの
少女A, ぽわぽわP
何番目でも 何番目でも
僕が僕であるために?
Kokou No Gadan (孤高の画壇), Kyojaku (虚弱)
(The full album, though my favorite track may be "Egoist" or "Affection")
I've actually decided to stop listening to music completely for a bit because I feel inundated by constant noise and distraction. Everything is shattering into just noise, & not music, & I can no longer tell what it all means. Maybe I will listen to music again in June, when I am on the plane to Japan.
Nantes, Beirut
And in a year, a year or so
Come On! Feel the Illinoise!, Sufjan Stevens
Oh, God of Progress
Have you degraded or forgot us?
...
Are you writing from the heart?
Are you writing from the heart?
New Slang, The Shins
I'm on Fire, Bruce Springsteen
Drawn to the Blood, Sufjan Stevens
I'm drawn to the blood
The flight of a one-winged dove
How? How did this happen?
How? How did this happen?
The strength of his arm
My lover caught me off guard
How? Head of a rabbit
How? Head of a rabbit
For my prayer has always been love
What did I do to deserve this?
Life on Mars?, David Bowie
Babooshka, Kate Bush
Just like his wife when she was beautiful
Kashka From Baghdad, Kate Bush
'Cause when all the alley-cats come out
I can hear music from Kashka's house
My grandma loved Green Day; I heard Boulevard of Broken Dreams playing on the car radio & it made me think of her.
Nothing to Declare, MGMT
Young Girl A, PowapowaP
ああ 遠い夢を追いかけてさ
早い 早い 早い 早い 早い
早い 早い 早い 早い 早い
早い 早い 早い 早い 追いつけないよ
Gretel, Alex G
I don’t wanna go back
Nobody’s gonna push me off track, uh huh
I see what they do
Good people got something to lose, uh huh
For the Widows in Paradise, for the Fatherless in Ypsilanti, Sufjan Stevens
Even if I come back, even if I die
Is there some idea to replace my life?
Taking, Alex G
That’s how she found me this morning
Bundled my head in her arms
My Dear Giant, The Marshmallow Kisses
Runner, Alex G
Drawn to the Blood, Sufjan Stevens
My Dear Giant, The Marshmallow Kisses
In a second you may come back and I may fall
I lost my papers missed the chances I owe you all
Runner, Alex G
They hit you with the rolled up magazine
Josephine's Shop, My Little Airport
But Josephine
You may think your pals cannot lose you
Probably they need you so much
More than they love you
So why don't you abandon them?
Let yourself be free
This world is bigger than
What we always believe in
So why don't you try to fade out
From your dream of dreams?
Try to take the other risks
Your life should not be like this
Into Eternity, Jens Lekman
I have a love
I have a love for this world
A kind of love that will break my heart
A kind of love that reconstructs and remodels the past
That adds a dryness to the dry August grass
That adds the sunshine to the magnifying glass
And makes me fight for something that just can't last
Mass Anesthesia, Mediavolo
So many cars, queuing in lines
Such a sight just fills my heart with awe
Silent sadness fills my heart
In vapors of gas
Hours slowly pass
Yet, people don’t seem to care at all
Such a sight just fills my heart with awe
They just heed the highway call
Bigmouth Strikes Again, The Smiths
とある一家の御茶会議, Kururingo
Call It What You Want, Foster the People
L'Hiver Indien, Baloji
