06/30/2025 (Started 06/28/2025); Confession, Leo Tolstoy

06/29/2025; AlphaGo (2017), with Ivy

06/29/2025; Winter Light (1963)

The worst of Christ's sufferings was His loneliness.

06/28/2025; My Own Private Idaho (1991), with Ivy

06/27/2025; The Royal Tenenbaums (2001), with Ivy

06/26/2025; Alex G- Afterlife (Official Video), with Ivy

06/26/2025; Alex G- June Guitar (Official Video), with Ivy

06/23/2025; Anthony Bourdain: A Cook’s Tour S1E11 (Morocco / Sahara Desert)

In Bourdain's ealier shows, while episodes about European countries or the United States almost always focus on a specific city, countries of the Global South are sometimes treated as a monolith, with the "entirety" of the country's cuisine being shown in a single episode in nonspecifics. (I did not enjoy this episode.)

06/21/2025; Gospel of Mark

06/20/2025; Gospel of Luke

06/19/2025; Anthony Bourdain: A Cook’s Tour S1E9 (Arcachon, France)

06/19/2025; Anthony Bourdain: A Cook’s Tour S1E20 (My Life as a Cook)

Interesting seeing people that I remembered from reading Kitchen Confidential.

06/18/2025; “Me and Miss Mandible,” by Donald Barthelme

06/18/2025 (Started 03/29/2025); Typhoid Mary: An Urban Historical, Anthony Bourdain

06/17/2025 (Started 03/29/2025); Kafka on the Shore, Haruki Murakami

06/16/2025; Existential Crisis in Class

06/16/2025; Anthony Bourdain: A Cook’s Tour S1E14 (Saint Petersburg, Russia)

06/16/2025; Anthony Bourdain: A Cook’s Tour S1E13 (Saint Petersburg, Russia), with Ivy

06/15/2025; Alice Notley, "The Poetry of Everyday Life" (1988)

06/14/2025; Existential Crisis in Class

06/14/2025; You Are Into Mousetrap YouTube

*Roachtrap

06/08/2025; HEARTLOVEPOWERTEMPLE, birthday gift from Ivy

06/07/2025; I Saw the TV Glow (2024), with Ivy & sobbing

06/06/2025; The Harvard Student Who Killed Her Roommate

One of Sinedu’s Ethiopian relatives explained to me that if Sinedu had stayed in Ethiopia, nothing like this would ever have happened, for as soon as she started feeling bad the family would have brought her to the holy waters. “In America, you have psychologists,” she said, “but they don’t have any special powers, do they?”

Church burials are not permitted for suicides because when the Devil tempted the soul to suicide he obtained it forever. But Sinedu’s family, who believe that no one knew what had really happened to her, arranged to have her given such a burial.

Cookies and orange Fanta were served with a pained hospitality.

The temple was once a Catholic church; the altar has been replaced with a statue of the Buddha, but the stained-glass windows still depict the sufferings of Christ.

06/01/2025; Ste the Beautiful Martyr 1st Attempt (2025), Bladee

05/21/2025; Psychopomp (2016), Japanese Breakfast

05/18/2025; True Myth: A Conversation With Sufjan Stevens

At one point, he offers to show me his childhood stamp collection; I think he might be kidding, but he’s not.

“The kids were like little puppies around her, they just loved her.”

I would have a period of rigorous, emotionless work, and then I would be struck by deep sadness triggered by something really mundane, like a dead pigeon on the subway track.

But I quickly learned that you don’t have to be incarcerated by suffering...

I had this childhood fantasy of becoming a priest or a preacher, so I would read and study the bible and then make my family listen to me read a passage from the New Testament before meals—and they very begrudgingly accommodated that for a while.

05/18/2025; 2004 Sufjan Stevens Interview

05/18/2025; Sufjan Stevens Is Doing Okay

05/17/2025; Look Back (2024), cried again

05/17/2025; 27 Bad Survival Tips for Artists

I did not enjoy this & was left with the wistful feeling that I might have enjoyed this more when I was still a woman, or at least more dumb & innocent. But now I'm just a jaded man. Becoming myself also means letting go of things. It's confusing.

05/10/2025; Anthony Bourdain: A Cook’s Tour S2E4 (How to Be a Carioca / Rio, Brazil), with Ivy

05/06/2025; The Lioness (2000), Songs: Ohia

05/05/2025; Anthony Bourdain: Parts Unknown S3E8 (Bahia, Brazil), with Ivy

05/03/2025; A Minecraft Movie (2025), with Ivy

05/03/2025; 90 Day Fiancé S4, with Ivy

04/25/2025; Anthony Bourdain: No Reservations S7E6 ( The Amazon / Belém, Brazil), with Ivy

04/23/2025; Day 54: Songs: Ohia, “Just Be Simple”

I feel like I wake up every morning with no firm conception of who I am, what I believe, or what my purpose is.

04/22/2025; Anthony Bourdain: No Reservations S3E9 (São Paulo, Brazil), with Ivy

04/20/2025; Diary of a Country Priest (1951), Ivy & Wren

04/19/2025; Conclave (2024), (W)re(n)commended to me

04/17/2025; The Magnolia Electric Co. (2003), Songs: Ohia

04/16/2025; The Magnolia Electric Co. (2003), Songs: Ohia

Ivy has been making fun of me for watching House.

04/06/2025; The Informant! (2009), with Ivy

04/05/2025; Crash (1996), with Ivy, we were unimpressed

04/05/2025; Fallen Angels (1995), with Ivy, cried

03/31/2025; Anthony Bourdain: Parts Unknown S8E7 (Minas Gerais, Brazil), with Ivy

03/30/2025; Anthony Bourdain’s Macau-style pork chop sandwich

03/25/2025; SNOOZE QUEST, God Save the Animals (2022), Alex G, first listen-through after getting hit by the car (?)

03/22/2025; Anthony Bourdain’s Macau-style pork chop sandwich, subbed balsamic for black vinegar & mirin for Chinese rice wine

03/21/2025; Started BOTW replay

03/17/2025; Anthony Bourdain: No Reservations, S3E1 (Ireland), with Ivy

Note: Try uric-acid-piss-food & man-to-man sports & wrestle some nuns.

03/16/2025; Anthony Bourdain: No Reservations S8E4 (Portugal)

Note: Try blood sausage.

03/15/2025; ワールドイズユアーズ (2009), Mass of the Fermenting Dregs

03/15/2025; "Ice Man", Haruki Murakami, (Ivy read to me in bed)

03/12/2025; Twinkle Echo (2003), Casiotone for the Painfully Alone, with Ivy, laying in bed after getting hit by a car

03/11/2025; Ain't it Easy, Alex G, getting hit by a car

02/27/2025; The Rocky Horror Picture Show (1975), with Angeline, “... Are we watching this because I told you I’m trans? — No, no, no, of course not!” - MICHAEL HATES THIS MOVIE!

02/22/2025; meandmicahel: playlist by Ivy, with Ivy, getting rid of my clothes

02/22/2025; I Saw the TV Glow (2024), with Ivy, crying during & after

02/15/2025; Paddington in Peru (2025), with Angeline, in exile

02/15/2025; Dog Man (2025), with my little brother, in exile

02/12/2025; God Save the Animals (2022), Alex G, every day on the bus, ritualistically

02/06/2025; Anatomie d'une chute (2023), with Angeline

02/06/2025; In the Aeroplane Over the Sea (1998), Neutral Milk Hotel, with Ivy

02/05/2025; God Save the Animals (2022), Alex G, twice

02/01/2025; Diary of a Country Priest (1951)

01/29/2025; Digimon: The Movie (2000), with Ivy

01/25/2025; Look Back OST (2024)

01/25/2025; All Hail West Texas (2002), The Mountain Goats

01/23/2025; Beach Music (2015), Alex G, forty five minute late bus

01/21/2025; Look Back OST (2024), snowalking

01/20/2025; Look Back (2024), with Ivy, I was so emotional that I felt like I was gonna puke, then it started snowing

01/20/2025; Paddington (2014), with my little brother & pizza

01/18/2025; Twin Peaks (Season One), with Ivy

01/16/2025; Little Miss Sunshine (2006), with Angeline, I spent the night, guest bedroom

01/12/2025; Dinner in America (2020), with Angeline

01/10/2024; Ivy read “To Build a Fire” by Jack London, as I fell asleep

01/05/2025; Devil in the Shortwave (2001), The Mountain Goats

01/02/2025; The OK Thing to Do on Sunday Afternoon Is to Toddle in the Zoo (2004), My Little Airport

01/02/2025; First Reformed (2017)

01/02/2025; Little Miss Sunshine (2006)